I tend to believe what Remus says in this chapter, but feel how Sirius feels. I think that's pretty much true always. Remus is gentle and quiet and painfully honest. I think that, perhaps because of the wolf, he is almost afraid to be guided by emotions. Yes, he feels things (and you show that well), but he is hesitant to let his feelings be his guiding impulse.
In some respects, Sirius is the opposite. He feels things deeply and, in fact, that is part of what separates him from his family. That horrifying bit with beheading the House Elf? What made him different from Bella there was that he felt something. Horror, guilt, fear, and revulsion, are not pleasant emotions, but they are humanizing ones. And it is that humanity that makes him so fragile and loving.
Oh, and before I forget, your description of Bella (and her mother being worse than Walburga) was was both heartbreaking and terrifying. But it made a nice foil to Sirius. (And, even, now that I think about it, to Regulus.)
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Date: 2009-01-19 11:54 pm (UTC)I think that's pretty much true always. Remus is gentle and quiet and painfully honest. I think that, perhaps because of the wolf, he is almost afraid to be guided by emotions. Yes, he feels things (and you show that well), but he is hesitant to let his feelings be his guiding impulse.
In some respects, Sirius is the opposite. He feels things deeply and, in fact, that is part of what separates him from his family. That horrifying bit with beheading the House Elf? What made him different from Bella there was that he felt something. Horror, guilt, fear, and revulsion, are not pleasant emotions, but they are humanizing ones. And it is that humanity that makes him so fragile and loving.
Oh, and before I forget, your description of Bella (and her mother being worse than Walburga) was was both heartbreaking and terrifying. But it made a nice foil to Sirius. (And, even, now that I think about it, to Regulus.)