i am suffering from an excess of feelings

[leashy_bebes]

Gwaine's nape itches from the brush of his cloak. His own skin, the smile on his face, even the curl of his fingers feels foreign. Words taste wrong in his mouth. Somehow, tied down into the service of a king, adopted into a group of comrades with bonds forged in battle, Gwaine feels less sure of his place in the world than he ever has.

He knows where he wants to fit – right there, in the crook of that skinny arm, within reach of long fingers, trading jokes and secrets around a campfire. If he'd known, back then, that throwing himself into someone else's fight would end up dragging him into a world that's so much bigger than anything he's ever wanted... Well, he probably would have done it anyway.

Which means that ending up like this – talking all the time but saying nothing of himself, watching friendships he'd stumbled into twist and stretch under the pressures of other things – was always a probability. He doesn't know whether that makes him feel better or worse.

Comments

[myworldmytrue.livejournal.com]

I LOVE YOU. *clings*

[hardticket.livejournal.com]

asdflkj;jkl;asdf I love you!

[lolafeist.livejournal.com]

yay yay, this. :D Exactly.

*now, tucks you in*

[isisanubis.livejournal.com]

Seriously, thank you so much for writing this, especially after what they put him through this episode.

This very much has a Gwaine feeling to it, and is very appropriate for him.

[ourspacesongs.livejournal.com]

I love this. Love love love.

[viennajones.livejournal.com]

THIS. SO MUCH. ♥

[slightlytookish]

So much love for this!

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

*clings* Fic will totally fix this. I promise. I am making him extra badass in my quest fic just out of contrariness haha.

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

:D Thanks, bb

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

This is absolutely what is happening.

*snuggles with a blankie*

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

Aw, thanks hon. Yeah, the ep just made me hdfjksfhjda D: and this is just me trying to process wtf happened and try to make it still fit with awesome badass Gwaine we all love.

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon :D

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

:D This is what I am choosing to believe. And his angst will clearly be cured by a manly shoulder punch from Arthur and cuddles from Merlin.

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon :D

[myworldmytrue.livejournal.com]

I am making him extra badass in my quest fic just out of contrariness haha.

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

Lady, you are the best. <333

[alice-pike.livejournal.com]

Can you send this to the writers? Kthnx.

Exactly what I needed after this ep. Just, SO MUCH YES. Everything about this is perfect.

[leashy-bebes.livejournal.com]

Ahaha, I fear they would think I was a bit loopy if I did that, but trust me the temptation is there haha.

I'm glad you liked it :D It was what I needed to write after the ep too. *cuddles badass!Gwaine*